Jamie Goldberg, newly out of the closet in 1980 Detroit, tried everything to discover his identity while avoiding things in his past he did not want to face. His hidden past and the phantoms in his closet always seemed to be getting in the way. Keeping Jamie not just from discovering his true sense of self but also heading down a self destructive suicidal slide. Emerging from that journey alive, he finally stares down his fear and finds that the life he so desperately siloed starts converging. At first, his worst nightmares seemed to be coming true. Things he tried to keep hidden, feelings he was ashamed of start to come out. But instead of destructing him, it leads to a great celebration of life and a rejection of demons by embracing them and learning what being alive and in love truly mean. In this the third and final book of the Goldberg Variations, despite all the false starts, Jamie finally comes of age and emerges a self-actualized adult as he learns to over come the challenge to integrate or disintegrate.